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Received Edusave Award today! I was awarded SGD$500 with a certificate. This shall semi-mark the end of my Secondary School life.

After the ceremony, mama and I went to the lottery shop to buy 4D with my award ID and my NRIC number. She believed that it sort of good luck and who knows can help the family get more income. Okay, I participate a bit by paying half of the lottery bet amount which is Illegal Betting, because I am under 18. ><

Went out with the family after the ceremony, mama said I need to treat them because I am rich kid now (which is obviously not). We went to Pasir Ris White Sand, Lerk thai Restaurant to have our dinner. The foods were nice, and it is something no one should miss. Price were okay, total cost me $70+.

Time to stop here and shall start doing my tutorial now. *sigh* works never ends.

School life in MI has been okay for me so far. And through this PAE school life, I learned a lot of things, both knowledge and life skills.

Notes…Zzzzzz

I am a guy who doesn’t really speak to people in real life; I would just sit at one corner and do my own stuff. But MI had given some chances that gave me the confident to mix with some friends, meeting with people, speaking to others.

Some friends I made in MI.

I felt great! This is something I can’t do in my secondary school life and I am really very glad that I got quite a number of good friends in this school.

Maybe this is my school for the next 3 years? : D

Still got a long journey to go …

6^th January was my brother 8^th birthday and today is my mother birthday.

Here wishing them a

: )

Growing up is part of life. It is a process whereby everyone has to go through, a process which I had been trying to escape.

I’m afraid of growing up.

As I getting older, there are more secrets and problems in my life. Secrets in life that I can’t even tell my close one because I guess that would cause big disappointment to them. I regretted doing some stuff I shouldn’t be doing right now, and also doing something that is against the ‘human nature’. Sound serious, and in actual fact, it is very serious.

Regretted is one thing, how to overcome the disturbing feeling is another. From time to time, there is this disturbing feeling which makes me feel very bad about the stuff I did, about the things I did which went against the ‘human nature’. I tried to stop thinking about all these, but I couldn’t stop the feeling coming back.

Beside the biggest secret in my life, problems came into the picture of my life. Problems which I had a hard time solving them, problems which affected my life and my emotion. Teachers had been a great help by being a great listener of my problems, but yet these doesn’t solve the problems I am facing. I wish I have the power to solve all problems. But I guess that would never happen.

As I get into a new stage of life, I scare of meeting new group of people, in a new environment. Sometimes I even wish I could stop the time, remain what it is and never go on. I am afraid I cannot cope with my life once I entered the new stage of life. Examples; higher education, work, family, National Service, and much more. And as life is getting more stress, I couldn’t breath. I’m afraid that I couldn’t meet my goals and get the life I want.

One of my friend who just older than me one year old now already preparing to go university, and more and more people asking me about my O level. What the hell, I’m still waiting for O level! Really quite ashamed about this.

After studying, soon I would be enlisted to National Service. As much as I said that I really looking forward to this National Service, I am afraid that I couldn’t adapted the life of National Service. I couldn’t take the vagaries that those commandos would use. I am afraid that this National Service would affect my life now and further.

We have to face it, as time is ticking, we are growing. How to face it? I really don’t know. I am really, really afraid to grow up.

Can I don’t grow up?

It took me quite a while to decide whether should I go for the PAE or not (you may read more about PAE at Wikipedia). Finally, after listen to Guoyi’s advice, I reported to Millennia Institute this morning. Yes, back to school after a long break after O level.

The school is nice, big and it has everything I wished for in secondary school. The teachers are friendly, so does the students in the school. The food there was nice and I love the idea of cashless transaction. The discipline master sound strict, but sound friendly too.

Discipline Master giving Discipline talk (But is much better than the secondary school ones)
And no, that guy in the picture is not the discipline master.

• Now I got a hall with air-con, but I miss the hot and stuffy hall back in secondary school.

• Now I got cashless transaction in school, but I miss the time when food vendors give you the wrong change.

• Now I got a better type of food, but I miss the foods in secondary school which cannot be found else where.

• I miss the discipline master back in secondary school when he goes round checking on people and keep reminding us about school rules. (I really miss his ‘word of advice’)

• The teachers here might be too wordy, but I miss the times when the secondary school teachers keep nagging about your goals and educations.

• I miss teachers chasing homework too.

It’s another new stage for my life. Still remember when I first entered my secondary school, my first reaction,“Wah…I really in secondary school liao…”Now, I would say that times files and I had grown up, to accept the challenges found outside my comfort zone.

Side note: After today orientation, I seriously need to learn how to dance. I still can’t manage to do the MI Dance. And also, because of this dance, for the very first time, I held a girl’s hand.

You know, Cockroach is just like any other Singaporeans who *love* cheap and good. That’s why cockroach always buys economical rice when he is lazy to cook.

But nowadays, economical rice isn’t economical anymore. They give you little bit of rice, little bit of the stuff you requested, and plus surcharge of 20 cents if you takeaway.

Today, my family was lazy to cook; therefore I went all the way to one of the famous economical rice shop to buy dinner. (They are famous of their really cheap and nice food). But what happen was…

The rice they gave like as if I requested less rice >< The rice they gave can finished with 20 spoon. Not only that, 1 vegetable and 2 meat together with (that little amount of) rice cost me bloody $4.50! It used to cost a lot cheaper… Base on Singaporean mentally, this shop would close very soon.

Everything rose…why my pocket money and salary never rise… *cry* I miss the olden days…

It’s a new year! Time really flies, we had entered a new year and 2006 countdown was like just yesterday.I remember when I was young and was schooling; I had a hard time writing the New Year on my worksheet and homework. We used to greet the teacher followed by the day and date. Cockroach, the smart feller, would greet very loudly and when everyone says “Today is Wednesday, 3 Jan 1995″, I said “Today is Wednesday, 3 Jan 1994!” ><

2008, wonder what will happen in this year. Life is so unpredictable, and to be honest, I started to feel I’m scare, scare of life and time.

Happy New Year everyone!

Can’t believe I am back to blogging, in the very last day of the year 2007.Many things happened while I am away from blogging, many things changed too. There are happy, sad, angry things happened and changed. Cried before, shouted before, enjoyed before, but everything would be the past and tomorrow would be a new beginning.