Cockroach Personal…
To be frank, I’m a guy with no security and confident. I break down very easily and I very depend on my support pillar.
Till now, from time to time, I will get upset with little small things which a guy shouldn’t be upset of.
Am I born with that? Where to get self-security? If continue like that I might ended up with no girlfriend!!!
Today was blog hopping around and found two of my CCA seniors. Although they might not know me very well, I’m still glad that both are doing well now.
It’s always the case. I know people, people don’t know me.
I don’t have many friends in real world. In school, at work, not many people know me well. I mean, for secondary school as an example, I only meet classmates in school and other time I would be staying at home with no interaction with my classmates after school. Now, I miss them, I miss 5N2. Their joke, their nonsense, their nosiness even though I’m not very close to most of them.
It is till when I go to MI, I told myself to break through a little, at least mix with some group of friends. And I did. I got to know Lee Wah, Evan, Jeffery, Xiao Mei, and the rest of them. A bunch of nice friends who we can joke around, have breakfast and lunch together. It is them that make me to be a person who talks a little more, a little more confident, and a littler more security, somehow.
I’m a person who cannot let go. I think I will miss all the fun with them after PAE period. I think I will miss having lesson with them even though the lessons are boring.
Really, it’s hard to let go.
What to do? Our dear cockroach here is seriously need help in getting things right. Any helping hands?
Cockroach//蟑螂 on February 2nd 2008 in Words from Cockroach
sy en aka protalker responded on 02 Feb 2008 at 9:03 pm #
new school=more fun!staying in MI may be boring because the same activities are repeated over n over again..moving to new enironment may mean losing ur frenz but u all can still keep in contact?
Gan.- responded on 05 Feb 2008 at 5:19 am #
franky speaking i used to be like u before when my mum passed away.yeh i do feel nostalgia out of the blue whenever i see students wearing uniform… but anyway… i guess moving into a new enviroment does help in your introvert personaility,giving you a brand new perspective view of your life… haha.. if i didn’t ‘pon’ PAE in MI we might even know each other ahahah (=