When a family doesn’t look like one…
I Cried.
It’s hard to describe the feeling inside me for the past few months. How I wish, I have magical power, to change things for the better, for my family, for everything.
Family has not been doing well for the past few months. Cold war between parents and miscommunication between me and my mum make me unable to breath. I find it difficult to cope, difficult to accept, difficult to believe.
I sometime wonder why…why is it so difficult to handle marriage, why is it so difficult to live under one roof, why is it there are so many problem happening in the family.
I love them, that is the reason why I don’t why this family to be separated. I have been trying all ways for the pass few months to solve the problem but it all failed. Please! Please tell me what I should do, what should I do to make this family reunited. What should I do to solve everything! Everything…
I started to feel useless. I’m such a failure as the eldest son. Am I making everything worse? When can they take one step back to see everything? Everyone have a responsible to play, but no one willing to take the step.
I wish I have magical power, to bring this family reunited again, a happy family again, a family I would love to live in, no matter what hardship we have to go through, I willing to go through with them. Please, please give me the magical power to make this happen. Please…
God, May I beg you, to give me the strength and power to handle the problems. May I have you to help me solve the problem with me, together like a family, because… because I really miss those time. Really…
Cockroach//蟑螂 on January 27th 2008 in Words from Cockroach
