Lost
Making a decision may be tough sometimes and decisions might change one life forever.
- Cockroach
O level result will be release next week and I am really very lost now. I don’t know where to go for my next education, and most importantly I am not sure how well or badly I had done for O Levels. I haven’t been so stress ever since I completed my O Levels. I’m worry about my future, my plans, my family, my life. I’m afraid that the route I chose will not turn out what I want. I’m afraid that I would fail to provide a better life for my family and failed to make SGEduLab an even more meaningful place. Really, I’m scared. I have been thinking whether which route should I take, which one is better for me, which one would benefit the most for both my family and me. Weighting the pros and cons, I still can’t really decide…
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Stay @ MI |
Go to Poly… |
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End of 3 years… |
If I stay in MI, at the end of 3 years, I may end up with both diploma and A Level cert if I applied for dual track program.
But also, if I cannot do well for A level, I would end up with nothing and go no where. |
Should I go poly, at the end of 3 years, I may end up with a diploma. And if I do well enough, I may get myself a place in the local university.
But that would also mean that if I cannot do well enough, I need to go overseas for my further studies. |
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Traveling… |
It will take me about 1 hour 15 min to reach school by MRT; about 3 hours spend on traveling daily.
I must put in consideration of whether I could take it or not. After long hours of studying in school, do I have enough energy to travel from west to east again? |
I can choose a poly near my house which is a walking distance of 10 to 15 min.
But we must bear in mind that I might not get into the poly I wanted to. I may get posted to a poly somewhere in the west too. |
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Studying… |
Studying at MI can be quite stressful. With many things are base in theory and I’m forced to do something that I don’t like (for example GP), then everything seem to be like secondary school when we \”Don’t have a choice\”. |
I would have a choice to study what I like (mainly computer or business). But the problem would be: |
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The Stress… |
I must put into consideration of me able to handle the stress that coming towards me.
With personal life problems, family problems, growing up problems, am I able to handle all the stress well for the 3 years? |
Polytechnic have stress too. Rushing to meet datelines of projects, exams and etc.
Am I able to handle to stress of projects datelines for 3 years? |
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The $$$… |
Studying in MI could be cheap because it is a government school. However, it might not be the case if I chose the dual track program. For diploma, I must pay in cash which I doubt my family could afford it.
On other hand, I could receive ‘government benefit’ like public transport discount and Edusave scholarships and etc. |
Studying in poly might buddle my family. Though school fees may paid by CPF, would I able to return the money back to my parent’s CPF? Would the daily expense of the family went up due to I have to pay adult fare for public transport? |
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The Life |
I would be busy whole day mugging, reading, improving. I doubt I would have much life for myself and for my family and friends. I won’t able to take up part time work to help in family finance too. |
Poly life could be easier and more relaxing one way or another.
I could even do part time teaching to give some little income to my family and myself. |
So…. What to choose?
Cockroach//蟑螂 on January 19th 2008 in Cockroach's Education, Words from Cockroach
protalker responded on 19 Jan 2008 at 9:33 pm #
cockroach!!it looks like u are in deep thoughts..oh well..my suggestion to u is to think what u really want to achieve 2 yrs down the road..are u ready to take on new challenges in jc or would u want to take a safer route which is the poly route..
anyway..u can talk to me if u need help..:)
cybergal responded on 20 Jan 2008 at 12:14 am #
heyhey, i’ve actually read your blog before just that im lazy to comment! hahaha, good luck for the results =) im both anxious and excited, but remember there’re more than thousand of students in singapore feeling the same.
don’t worry too much about what’s done, you’ll do fine.
keep your spirits high! woohoo you actually listed the pros and cons. im bad a decision making hahaha, sometimes i’ll go count the steps i take to arrive at a decision =p
cheers!