Archive for January 19th, 2008

Lost

Making a decision may be tough sometimes and decisions might change one life forever.
- Cockroach

O level result will be release next week and I am really very lost now. I don’t know where to go for my next education, and most importantly I am not sure how well or badly I had done for O Levels. I haven’t been so stress ever since I completed my O Levels. I’m worry about my future, my plans, my family, my life. I’m afraid that the route I chose will not turn out what I want. I’m afraid that I would fail to provide a better life for my family and failed to make SGEduLab an even more meaningful place. Really, I’m scared. I have been thinking whether which route should I take, which one is better for me, which one would benefit the most for both my family and me. Weighting the pros and cons, I still can’t really decide…

No.

About?

Stay @ MI

Go to Poly…

 

End of 3 years…

If I stay in MI, at the end of 3 years, I may end up with both diploma and A Level cert if I applied for dual track program.

 

But also, if I cannot do well for A level, I would end up with nothing and go no where.

Should I go poly, at the end of 3 years, I may end up with a diploma. And if I do well enough, I may get myself a place in the local university.

 

But that would also mean that if I cannot do well enough, I need to go overseas for my further studies.

 

Traveling…

It will take me about 1 hour 15 min to reach school by MRT; about 3 hours spend on traveling daily.

 

I must put in consideration of whether I could take it or not. After long hours of studying in school, do I have enough energy to travel from west to east again?

I can choose a poly near my house which is a walking distance of 10 to 15 min.

 

But we must bear in mind that I might not get into the poly I wanted to. I may get posted to a poly somewhere in the west too.

 

Studying…

Studying at MI can be quite stressful. With many things are base in theory and I’m forced to do something that I don’t like (for example GP), then everything seem to be like secondary school when we \”Don’t have a choice\”.

I would have a choice to study what I like (mainly computer or business). But the problem would be:

\”Am I qualify or not?\”

 

The Stress…

I must put into consideration of me able to handle the stress that coming towards me.

 

With personal life problems, family problems, growing up problems, am I able to handle all the stress well for the 3 years?

Polytechnic have stress too. Rushing to meet datelines of projects, exams and etc.

 

Am I able to handle to stress of projects datelines for 3 years?

 

The $$$…

Studying in MI could be cheap because it is a government school. However, it might not be the case if I chose the dual track program. For diploma, I must pay in cash which I doubt my family could afford it.

 

On other hand, I could receive ‘government benefit’ like public transport discount and Edusave scholarships and etc.

Studying in poly might buddle my family. Though school fees may paid by CPF, would I able to return the money back to my parent’s CPF? Would the daily expense of the family went up due to I have to pay adult fare for public transport?

 

The Life

I would be busy whole day mugging, reading, improving. I doubt I would have much life for myself and for my family and friends. I won’t able to take up part time work to help in family finance too.

Poly life could be easier and more relaxing one way or another.

 

I could even do part time teaching to give some little income to my family and myself.

So…. What to choose?

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Cockroach//蟑螂 on January 19th 2008 in Cockroach's Education, Words from Cockroach